Friday, 23 June 2017

18 Weeks Pregnant


How far along. 18 weeks


Tuesday, 13 June 2017

Family time there's nothing better

If you are a working parent like me you know how guilty you feel for putting your children in nursery and how you have to pay someone else to look after your children. I would love nothing better than to be a stay at home mum but its just not possible for us. We are lucky enough to have family who can help out with childcare otherwise one of us would definitely have to give up work.

Guilt always arises for me because you come home from work and then home life kicks in and there's teas to be cooked, washing to be done endless other jobs and by the time you finally sit down its bedtime for Heidi, so I always think when am a actually spending quality time with me family. I am lucky enough to only work half a day on a Monday - unlucky I have to work full days the rest of the week but I get to spend that extra time with Heidi which I know I am lucky to be able to do.

When we get a week off together its a time when we like to do fun things and make memories so that is exactly what we did this last week. Unfortunate for us the weather was awful and we have already prebooked Cbeebies Land to stay over but we made the best of our week,

We went to Knowsley Safari Park on the Monday which was perfect because we can just drive around there in the car and look at all the animals which Heidi loves. It would of been nice to get out the car and walk around the walks and see some of the other animals they have but there is other days we can do that. We did get to see the Sea Lion show which I wasn't to sure how Heidi was going to react but she absolutely loved it. The smile on her face was priceless and I am just gutted I didn't get a picture. Its something we will be going back to do again, but maybe when the weather is a bit better.

On Tuesday we has already booked to go to Cbeebies Land and the weather was awful and all it did was rain but we thought lets just make the most of it while we are here. First off we went to the Water Park which is so good for kids but I think it was a bit overwhelming for Heidi and too many people, she kept asking to get out but I think she just wanted to see Iggle Piggle and Upsy Daisy because that's all she went on about on the journey down.

By the time we got out the water park the rain had started to go off so we headed over to the theme park.


Monday, 5 June 2017

Were does my lack of confidence comes from?

I have always been the shy kid, my earliest memory was probably at junior school. I would blend in to the background and was always that quiet kid who would never put her hand up to answer a question in class or ask for help if I needed it - I was probably scared what other people would think, "she's stupid" or if people laughed t me for asking a stupid question. Not only was I shy but I seriously lacked in confidence and still to this day I lack in confidence but in other ways.

I was bullied in junior school and I think that was down to my confidence issue and also when I first noticed I lacked in confidence. I was around 11 years old when I got bullied and I can honestly say it was one of the worst times of my life. At that age you should be worrying about who your best friend is that week or which boy you fancied the most in your class, not running home from school and locking yourself in your room worrying and crying your self to sleep, thinking what have I done to make someone make me like this. The worst thing was this girl was supposed to be one of my friends, and that's not what friends do. I was to quiet to fight back and just took it and I think that's why I was the easy target. Bullies will always pick on the weakest person because it makes them feel more superior, they would never pick on someone who would fight back.

Bullying is one of my biggest fears for Heidi, for her to feel the way I felt would break my heart and I pray to god it never does or on the flip side I hop she never becomes the bully. Heidi is a really shy little girl which I am really surprised about seen as though she has been going to nursery since she was 9 months old and mixed with so many different children and adults. I hope once the new baby comes along it will knock the shyness out of her. I took her to baby ballet when she was 18 months old which I though might help her to interact with other children but that didn't go to well. I think she might of been a bit to young and hoping in the next couple of months to take her and she might enjoy it because if there's one thing Heidi loves to do is dance.

My lack of confidence continued in to secondary school and if it came to speaking in front of the class I would stumble my words, go bright red and just want to run the hell out of there. OMG if I knew I had to do a talk a few days in advance I would worry about it for days and try and think of an excuse to get out of it. It showed in my exams too, teachers would say at parents evening to my mum that I could do the work and knew  the answers but when it came to exam's I would panic and that was down to my confidence and not believing in myself. I used to think when I am older I wont be like this because adults always look confidence.

It did follow me to adult hood and when I would meet new people I would be so quiet and not speak until I got to know them, it was exactly the same when I meet Keith and he thought I didn't like him because I hardly spoke on our first date - I sometimes wonder why he actually wanted a second date, haha that's were my lack of confidence come in. Since having Heidi it has improved and I love meeting new people and have the confidence to speak to them, I haven't got that thought in the back of my mind will they like me, am I interesting enough. But my confidence is now in other way, Keith will say to me you don't have much confidence in yourself do you. Even down to posting pictures on Instagram, I try to cut my face off pictures or use filters. If we go out I always pick holes in my appearance asking, "do I look fat in this, does this look ok?"

Writing this blog and posting pictures on Instagram has gave me some of my confidence back. I'm not questioning why people read my blog or like my pictures I'm just taking it as a compliment. I know I will never get over my lack of confidence as there will always be that thought in my mind but confidence grows and it will continue in me.

I would love to hear how you deal with confidence issues and if there is anything you do to help.

Twin Mummy and Daddy
The Mum Diaries (and dad's too)

Friday, 2 June 2017

15 Weeks Pregnant


How far along. 15 weeks


Friday, 19 May 2017

13 Weeks Pregnant


I thought I would start documenting my weekly pregnancy updates, when I was pregnant with Heidi. I found these really interesting and when you are a first time mum its nice to read and see how other people's pregnancy's differ from yours or just to be nosey - that was me!

 I have been using the Ovia Pregnancy app and I love the updates they have like the hand size and also the theme you can pick as to what size your baby is. I picked the Fun & Games but they also have Fruit & Vegetables, Parisian Bakers & Weird but cute animals.

How far along. 13 weeks


Monday, 15 May 2017

We have a surprise!


As some of you might of seen already from Instagram Surprise! So we are expecting are 2nd baby in November and this will complete our little family. We have just had our 12 week scan so thought I would share our exciting news.

This was planned because we just knew it was the right time to have another baby and Heidi was around the right age. I'll take you back to around 6 weeks ago when we found out. Before I had my missed period I just had a feeling that I was pregnant. I took an early pregnancy test a couple of days before and it came back negative which I was surprised about but just thought maybe it's not strong enough yet to show up. A few days after my missed period I took another test and still negative. I just ended up thinking maybe I'm just a bit stressed out - I had been doing a new job in work and things were getting a bit stressed, and my period would arrive in a few days. After a week I took another test to see what was going on and to my surprise it came back positive. I was so happy I ran down the stairs to tell Keith and we both had the biggest smiles ever.

Up to 12 weeks I will let you know how I have been feeling, I have had the usual tiredness, breathlessness and sickness - but this sickness is 100 times worse than when I was pregnant with Heidi. I have said to Keith I definitely think I am having a boy because its so different to Heidi's pregnancy. I haven't had any mood swings which Keith is happy about and I suppose the only other thing I have had is constantly feeling hungry - nothing satisfies my hungriness! But I am actually craving more savory foods than sweet which is also making me sway to a boy because all I wanted with Heidi was fruit and sweet foods. I definitely want to do a separate post on gender predictions and would love you to have a guess on what you think from our scan.

Heidi doesn't fully understand right now and every time I mention it she says "no brother or sister" which is a bit worrying because in 6 months time she will either one here. I am just going to try and keep her included as much as I can and try and explain how she can be mummy's helper etc and by then she will be 3 and she will hopefully understand a bit better.

If you have any tips on how to ease your child in to accepting a new brother or sister I would love to hear them?

If you want to see any specific baby related blog posts then please let me know and I will do my best to do them for you.

I am so happy I get to share my new journey with you and hope you enjoy following x

Two Tiny Hands

Tuesday, 2 May 2017

Our day out, Delamere Forest


Hope everyone had a lovely bank holiday weekend, I just love that extra day off work and getting to spend an extra day of family time. We thought we would make the most of the okish weather- well it wasn't raining so nothing can be better than that in England, and go to Delamere Forrest which is in Cheshire.

We packed a packed lunch and Heidi had her frozen wellies on which she loves and off we went in the car. It's probably about a 45 minute drive from we're we live so it's not to far. Heidi loves bridges at the minute so any bridge she seen was a great time for her, so we went over the Runcorn bridge which is quite big and she was so happy laughing and squealing in the car. I love seeing her so happy and it's just the little things that make her happy.


When we got there we couldn't find the main entrance so parked in another car park which was fine and right by the trail. We then noticed the Gruffolo trail and began to follow that. As we were walking we noticed other people had the Gruffolo trail packs but we carried on anyway. There was loads of clues to find the Gruffolo and his friends and places were you can take pictures and animals will appear on the pictures - I think a bit like the Pokemon app. We didn't take any of these pictures because there was a few people waiting and Heidi was more interested in running around. We did get to see the Gruffolo though and get a few pictures.





Even if you aren't doing the Gruffolo trail it's a great place to go for a walk and explore in the woods, there are loads of huts and a great place to take your dogs or even a bike ride. We ended up walking to the main entrance we're there's a cafe, eating area, toilets and a place to hire bikes etc which is such a good idea. There are loads of spots to stop and eat if you have taken a packed lunch. 


After are big walk we went back to the car, Heidi was so tired after all the walking and we were all hungry so we sat in the car and ate are packed lunch. Heidi loved it and it was nice to have a lovely morning walk and just be out in the fresh air. We will definitely be back again when the weather picks up and would recommend it to anyone.


Have you ever been? 

Monday, 24 April 2017

A to Z of what makes me happy

A is for Alcohol, because I love a Brandy and coke every now and then.

B is for Brothers, I have 2 and even though we sometimes argue I'm lucky to have them in my life.
C is for cuddles, when your feeling down nothing beats a good 
D is for My Dad, because who would do my wallpapering, seriously don't know what I would do without him.
E is for Eating, I love food and when I'm having my breakfast I'm thinking about lunch etc.
F is for Family, because that's what life is all about for me.
G is for Gym, it's were I like to go to have me time and I love to spend time with my gym friends.
H is for Heidi obviously ❤️
I is for Internet, what would any of us do without it these days.
J is for Jamaica, I have never been but have always wanted to go since I was a little girl. One day I will get there!
K is for Keith, he makes me happy and he's my best friend.
L is for Laughing, there's no better feeling than having a sore belly from laughing so much and sore cheeks.
M is for My Mum, I would be lost without her and I hope I turn out to be half the mum she is to me and my brothers.
N is for Never Land, I absolutely love tinkerbell, I even have her tattooed on my shoulder.
O is for Organising, nothing makes me happier than organising clutter.
P is for Park, I just love how simple it is but makes Heidi so happy.
Q is for Quiet, sometimes 5 minutes is all you need.
R is for R&B, nothing chills me out more than listening to a bit of R Kelly or Ashanti.
S is for Sweets, I definitely have a sweet tooth.
T is for Cup of Tea, I can't function without my morning cup.
U is for Up-Cycling, I love seeing what people create and really want to try it myself.
V is for Vino, a nice glass of Rose on a summers day.
W is for Walking, when the sun is out it makes me happy being out in the fresh air.
X is for Xmas, my favourite time of the year, I'm still like a big kid.
Y is for Yoga, which I have just started to get in to, it's so relaxing and clears my mind.
Z is for Zoo, who doesn't like to look at all the animals, I find them so interesting.

I would love to know what your makes you happy A to Z?

Pink Pear Bear

Monday, 3 April 2017

5 things I like to do without children

I love my daughter and spending time with her - obviously that's what parents are supposed to do! And I do feel guilty that I have to work during the week so evenings and weekends are so precious. But every now and then it's nice to not be mummy and daddy and instead be Michaela and Keith.

The 5 things I like to do while I don't have Heidi are,

  1. Relax and read a book

I couldn't tell you the last time I got in the bath and lit a few candles and read a book. Since I got the The Unmumsy Mum Diary book for mothers day I am going to start making time even if its just half an hour to relax in the bath and read my book. I will let you all know what I thought of the book when I start reading it, and I cant wait, I have been wanting it for ages.

    2.  Cinema

I love going the pictures, its a ideal date night for me and Keith and its nice to just have a chill with no interruptions for a good 2 hours. I couldn't tell you the last thing we went to see but we did used to go often but now its just having the time. I did go the theatre a few weeks ago with my mum which is sort of the same thing to watch Funny Girl with Sheridan Smith who was absolutely amazing - if you can still catch it I would highly recommend it.

    3.  Eat out at a restaurant

I love going out for a nice meal, its nice to just not have to decide what to cook, cook it and then wash the mound of dishes. When you have children with you though it turns in to a nightmare, you are chasing them around the restaurant or just shovelling it down your gob to get out of there quickly. Every now and then me and Keith like to make a night of it and I love to get dressed up, go for something to eat - we usually go to Browns Brasserie the food is to die for and they do the most amazing after dinner cocktails.

    4. Shopping

I love to shop - Christmas and birthdays are my favourite times to shop! It doesn't even have to be shopping for me, I love buying clothes for Heidi. Shopping with a child though.....totally different story, I am yet to meet a mum who loves to shop with there children. I like to go early in the day and have a look around, taking my time and even stopping half way for a cup of tea and a cheeky piece of cake - girls you know we need that energy to keep shopping for longer.

    5. SLEEP!!!!

The last thing and probably the most important is sleep. If I have an hour to myself sometimes I just like to have a little nap. We all know that once you have kids you don't have a decants nice sleep for a long veryyyy time. So to have the odd little hour every now and then is a bonus.

What things do you like to do when you are child free?

This Mum's Life

Friday, 24 March 2017

The toddler diaries #1


Monday 20th March 2017 👧🏼

I'm just lying in bed waiting for my mummy and daddy to come and get me. Wait what is that noise, it's my daddy "daddy" in walks my daddy and I love it when he comes and takes me downstairs for my breakfast.

I love cuddling on the couch with my daddy and watching paw patrol while eating my breakfast, I love my daddy. "Heidi" that's my mummy shouting me that means time to go and get ready for the day. I like my outfit but now it's time to brush my teeth, I hate brushing my teeth - why can't it taste like ice cream?

Mummy dropped me off at my nannies and I get to play with the cat. I know she will be back soon to come and pick me up and we get to spend the day together. There is a knock on the door so I run to answer it with my nanny, it's mummy.

I love being outside, I'm walking to the shops with mummy and we're holding hands and singing songs, this is fun.

I love to play with my mummy we played building blocks and sang nursery rhythms. I started to feel a bit sleepy so I had a little sleep in my Thomas the Tank Engine bed.


We are in the car again going to pick nanny up from work my mummy said. I wish my mummy would stop singing "shhhh mummy be quiet"

Pork chop and cheese macaroni, I'm not eating that. Maybe if I start crying they will take it away, phew after a while it's gone and I can eat my yogurt and fruit mmmmm my favorite.

It's getting late now and I'm feeling sleepy, when will mummy take me to bed. My mummy finally carries me to bed and I love to get comfy with my teddy's "na night mummy, love you, see you in the morning" 

I'm lying here counting sheep, one, two, three .........

Did your little ones have any interesting moments today?

Wednesday 22nd March 2017

I heard my daddy's voice again so I knew it was time to get up. It's nursery day again today and after a few weeks of not wanting to go in I am starting to like going in now. I get to play with all my friends and play in the garden which is my favourite thing to do.

I have played in the sand box today and the home corner, it's so much fun. I enjoyed my lunch which was turkey roast dinner and fruit purée yogurt, but didn't like my afternoon snack yuck sardine muffins but I did eat the cake yum yum. I also played in the garden and jumped in muddy puddles but I think I got a bit too muddy because I had to have my clothes and shoes changed.

My favourite part of the day is when my mum picks me up. She sneaked up on me as I was playing and I turned around and gave a big hug.

I'm getting quite sleepy now because I only had a little nap so maybe if I cuddle with my mummy she will take me to bed.....yes it worked, na night everyone see you tomorrow.

Wednesday, 22 March 2017

The mummy diaries: #1


Monday 20th March 2017

Arghhh it's Monday morning again, how does the weekend go so fast? I'm sure it was only Friday like 2 hours ago. Oh well at least I'm only in work until 12 o'clock (FYI I only work half a day on a Monday, but unfortunately for me full time the rest of the week). 

So this morning I was actually awake before Heidi, don't you just hate it when that happens missing out on those precious 15 minutes extra of sleep. Also a bonus this morning was getting Heidi changed for some reason she doesn't like wearing certain clothes, sometimes I think a have a twonager. 

Then it was off to work and dropping Heidi off. Thankfully the morning went quick and it was soon time to go home. I love spending my Monday afternoons with Heidi it's just nice having that extra mummy/daughter time, especially when you work all week.

We didn't do much as the weather wasn't the best even though it was the first day of Spring. We did get to go out for a little walk which Heidi loved because she just loves to be outdoors.

My exercising over the past few weeks has been non existent of late with me being ill. Now it's time to get back to it and get fit for summer. 

  • 15 minutes on the exercise bike (while catching up on YouTube videos)
  • Total body workout from tone it up (really recommend these videos on YouTube)
Heidi went to bed without a struggle which makes bedtime so much easier. Now I can chill out with my cup of tea, chocolate and watch Broadchurch.

Tuesday 21st March 2017

Its like deja vu again only this time I am in work all day today 😢 Heidi is also in nursery today and a big plus was she went in with no crying. Before Christmas Heidi used to love going to nursery but after the Christmas break and being off with us both she would cry every time I dropped her off. Last week was the first time she hasn't cried since then. Today she gave me a big wave and went off to play, Sometimes I'm not sure if the fact she doesn't need me anymore upsets #mumproblems.

After work I had my PT lesson which I always look forward to, its a great place to get all my frustrations out and when I come out I feel so much more relaxed. Also sore because my PT works us hard but that is exactly what I need #SoreButNotSorry. I know I will sleep tonight.

Diary of an imperfect mum